The Problem
I have always had a problem ever since I was in high school, for some reason I always woke up extremely tired and feeling like my head would blow anytime.
The consequences were that I would always end up sleeping in the middle of classes, even when I was sitting in the front of the whole class so the teachers could even see me clearly, and most of my ex-classmates can account for that, they called it “falling into trance“.
So, I spent the rest of my high school life, university life and even professional life falling into unexpected trances every once in a while. Nobody really complained that much since my grades were really good and my performance in work was actually pretty good.
Also, I felt I couldn’t think properly and had problems to concentrate properly while studying or having conversations.
Sometimes I even felt like life was a complete pain because of this. I wasn’t feeling depressed or anything at all but certainly I wasn’t the happiest person in the world.
So It Got Even Worse…
The situation worsened when I got a job at one of these computer technical support call centers (that job was hell itself, if you have the opportunity to work in a call center just do it if you are enough a masochist). With completely irregular schedules that changed every month and having to work until 1:00 or 2:00 am I was feeling like crap even more. The situation continued even after I quit working at that hellhole.
Then I came to Japan, and I noticed that, even though I wasn’t feeling homesick or anything, I was feeling like crap even more and it looked like this would just get worse over the time and I didn’t know why.
The Quest for the Solution
Since something was definitely wrong I decided to try to do something about it, so I visited many web sites that talked about the same problem and how to solve it; none of them worked.
I continued trying stuff by myself and finally found something that worked for me, now I wake up feeling much better. Since I tried doing a lot of stuff gradually, I don’t know exactly what were the necessary steps to achieve this, but it definitely worked for me and now I share this with you.
Most of the sites I visited said stuff about quitting smoking or drinking alcohol. I don’t smoke nor drink so these didn’t apply to my case and therefore I can’t say whether these two factors affect this condition or not, but if you do everything I did and still feel like dying probably you should quit it as well just in case.
Experiment #1: Change Your Pillow
One of the very first things I bought in Japan was a pillow, since my dorm didn’t provide any. I thought it was a nice comfortable pillow (and kind of expensive as well), but after a while I noticed I was waking up with this horrible pain in the back of the head sometimes. I changed the pillow and the pain disappeared.
- Results: Completely effective in reducing pain in the neck and the head. I still kept feeling like total crap, but without so much pain.
Experiment #2: Don’t let Sunlight Get in Your Room
The room at my dorm was OK, except for the fact that at mornings too much sunlight gets in and I always woke up because of that. That’s alright if you want to get up early I guess, but if you want to sleep a lot because you are damn tired it is just annoying.
The curtains of my room were so crappy that a lot of sunlight could still get through them. A while back ago I got a much better set of curtains from a friend of mine. Now I can sleep until whatever time I feel like without interruptions.
- Results: A good idea if sun is always interrupting your sleep. I still kept feeling like crap, but for less time a day since now I could sleep longer.
Experiment #3: Avoid Coffee and Soft Drinks
This is one that is always being mentioned in other sites that talk about this. That caffeine interrupts your sleep and that, besides coffee, a lot of soft drinks contain huge amounts of caffeine, etc etc.
I was never too much of a coffee drinker, but I loved cola a lot as most of my friends can testify. So well, I just decided to quit cola and any other soft drinks and drink water, green tea and fruit juices instead. (In case you are wondering, quitting was really easy actually)
I was kind of happily looking forward to see some results from this, but shocking as it is, four months later I still continued suffering from the same problem.
One thing that a friend pointed out is that, when going to the gym I would end up feeling like dying sometimes and this could be because of soft drinks. I guess this is true since I haven’t felt that bad when doing exercises after quitting soft drinks.
- Results: Almost none at all, I kept feeling like crap as always and kind of disappointed as well. I continued avoiding soft drinks and that kind of stuff just in case.
Experiment #4: Don’t Use Painkillers (In fact, try to avoid all medicines if possible)
A couple of months ago I had a problem in my jaw that it would hurt like hell whenever I tried to chew anything or opened my mouth too much. I went to the dentist and he just gave me some painkillers.
After some days, the pain disappeared, but while I was taking the painkillers I noticed that I slept and woke up feeling much better. After I stopped taking them the problem reappeared and had even intensified.
- Results: Although taking them will surely help you sleep better, you cannot keep simply taking painkillers your whole life since it’s kind of freaking dangerous and it kind of worsens the problem if you stop consumption. So well, I still kept feeling like crap, but at least had a vacation of about a week from that damn condition.
Experiment #5: Avoid Chocolate
So, even after doing all of that, it seemed like death was the only way I could ever escape from this. I want to keep living as much as possible and I personally dislike suicide since that’s kind of a gay or emo thing, so instead I tried to gather more information on stuff that could possibly have something to do with this; I found the same stuff over and over, caffeine, alcohol and smoking.
As I said before, I don’t drink nor smoke, so my only option was caffeine. I got a list of most of the stuff that contains caffeine, and chocolate was in it of course.
I am not so fond of chocolate myself, but occasionally I would buy a bar or a cup of chocolate chip ice cream whenever I wanted some snack. My chocolate consumption was not so high but it still was worth a try; sadly, it didn’t work.
- Results: Almost none, still feeling like crap, but I never consumed too much anyway, so whether it has some effect or not I still don’t know. I kept avoiding chocolate just in case as well.
Experiment #6: Don’t Drink Green Tea or Any Other Kind of Tea
Next on the list of stuff containing caffeine was tea. Ever since I came to Japan, I had been taking at least one cup of green tea every single day because I had always been hearing about the benefits of Japanese green tea; that it will make your life span longer, that it prevents cancer, that it cleans your body, and all that nasty crap which I don’t know whether it’s true or not, and also because it’s Japanese tradition.
Since a long time ago I had been hearing of people that can actually sleep better after taking a cup of tea before going to sleep. Well, I can tell you now, and some people will most likely be shocked, but that’s just plain BULLSHIT.
The next day right after I stopped drinking tea I felt way much better, and I kept feeling better with each passing day. It kind of makes sense since my condition worsened after coming to Japan, the land of green tea.
- Results: The problem had mostly disappeared after the first day I stopped consumption. It might lengthen my life, but I personally prefer a nice short life rather than a long painful one, so it’s up to you.
Conclusions
If you have the same problem as I had, probably caffeine is what’s slowly killing you. Try to check up if the stuff you consume contains caffeine and try to avoid them.
Some people might actually have no problems at all with caffeine, but then, maybe it is that I’m more sensitive to caffeine than other people or something like that. Remember, each person is different.
Also, try to avoid any disturbances that could affect your sleep, like sound or too much light in your room.
Further Theories
As many people already know, the suicide rate in Japan is actually very high. This can be accounted to many factors like bullying in schools, pressure at work and stuff like that.
I, being a Chinese guy in a country filled mostly with non-asian people, was bullied almost everyday for 12 years by your average air head bullies, and did not commit suicide. Instead, I decided to grow powerful enough (monetary speaking) to make all their lives completely miserable. I don’t hold those grudges anymore, but I still want to grow powerful though.
Also, work had always been pressing as well, especially while I was still in the university with a full time schedule.
So, at first, it seemed to me like the Japanese were just looking for any stupid excuse to commit suicide.
But, what if a large part of the population was actually quite sensitive to caffeine and not aware of it, and thus, being this a country with lots of tea and coffee drinkers (there is a coffee shop in almost every corner), the high consumption of caffeine would actually induce them to commit suicide.
Believe me, when I said I felt like crap, I really meant it, so some people with similar problems might actually end up depressing like hell.








This article was great, despite (or probably because of) the fact that I’m consuming a big cup of coffee while reading it.
Caffeine is, simply stated, a plague and a savior. I think that if you could divide my life into shades of light and dark (with light representing all that is good and dark representing all that is bad), you would find that I’m consuming or effected by caffeine in the light areas.
I entirely believe that caffeine effects us more profoundly than we think, and I think that chronic coffee drinking can be detrimental to your life, perhaps not even so much in terms of physical health, but in terms of behavior. It is amazing how terrible you can feel when un-caffeinated. Fernando said it – you feel like total shit, even when you KNOW that these feelings are false. Depression, excessive anxiety, low self-esteem, low sense of self-worth, low confidence, I have experienced all of these and more. Of course, I’m not suggesting that everyone who drinks caffeine-related drinks reacts the same way.
I’m a fairly heavy coffee drinker – I drink probably the equivalent of 3-4 cups a day. This is of course near the recommended limit, but I am actually very small, so it is probably almost twice the amount for me.
Regardless of this personal assessment, I think we really do need be more careful about our caffeine intake. Right now, I feel like I’m in a deadly cycle that is fairly out of control; one that I can’t really quit until at least the end of the term. And quitting, as I’ve tried it before, is very hard.
Caffeine Blues (http://www.amazon.ca/Caffeine-Blues-Hidden-Dangers-Americas/dp/0446673919) deals with this topic and one perspective on the book is here: http://www.relfe.com/caffeine.html. I suggest taking a look at the second link if you are at all concerned about our caffeine intake; it will probably turn you off caffeine. I have been there but I have been unable to quit, because I’m in university, and I continually (at least at certain times) need to rely on my ability to concentrate.
I sometimes wonder if life will be better without caffeine. I find that I usually don’t “wake up” even while using caffeine until later in the day. In other words, my days start out utterly horrible, and slowly begin to get better, until around the afternoon leading into the evening, where I feel elated and I feel like I can solve all the problems in the world, and I feel like I’m so happy where my life is going. But then, the next day, the whole morning is shot, because I feel like total shit, and I feel no motivation to do ANYTHING. I am utterly unproductive in the mornings, and it actually sets me back on my life journey.
I would ask Fernando: Is life really better without tea/caffeine? What is it like? How would you compare a typical day from your past (under the influence of caffeine) with a typical day today? How did you quit? I’d love to know, because I’m too young to feel this much like shit, and I hope to fix this problem in my life. My life is entirely not bad. I have made great accomplishments, I’m on a solid path, and I dream of so much more, but I feel that is somewhat in jeopardy; I feel like I’m running the risk of living a mediocre life as opposed to really putting 100% into something and loving it, living it, and growing. I want that life, but I feel like caffeine sabotages my efforts every day. (How can you give your all when you have brief moments of giving 150%, but most of the time you’re drifting down around 50%? )
I don’t even want to get into my relationships with other people. People, I’m sure, have wondered why I’m so pathetic (I would call myself pathetic in these times, they would probably just think I’m being plain). People know I have good qualities, but they must also wonder why sometimes I’m so flaky. I don’t blame them. If I were to pry even deeper into the psyche, I might find that my perception of what people think of ME may be tainted too: perhaps people don’t think negatively of me at all, perhaps it’s just a result of my shitty mood, due to (likely) caffeine.
I’ve always been one to believe people are 100% accountable for their actions, and I believe that still. I believe that my bad habits are killing me and are within my control, but the question is: Is life better without caffeine?
Any answers, anyone?
Also, I sympathize with Brendan. I’ve noticed that I need a lot of sleep to function. When I was going to bed at 10pm and waking up at around 7/7:30am, I felt better about life. That’s around 9 1/2 hours, which seems a little much, but then when you take into account that I’m drinking coffee during the day, it makes more sense. When I get into the habit of staying up late, that’s when life turns to total shit.
I hate to go to bed early…but it’s probably best for me. As the article suggests, I think there are many factors, and caffeine and # of hours of sleep are probably the biggest and more important factors.
hi, well, for my case, it’s been quite a while since I quit caffeine and I can say that life is definitely better… or at least for me that is
I can sleep much better as you already know and I can wake up in the morning without too much trouble as well
if I go to sleep late and wake up about 3 or 4 hours later, I feel very sleepy of course, but I don’t feel like the entire world is coming down on me anymore
I have noticed that some other things have changed in my personality as well, I don’t feel so nervous anymore when having presentations at school or any other places, I also don’t get so mad at little things that used to piss me off a lot before
about how to quit coffee, it is actually very hard if you don’t have an strategy… what you have to be conscious about is that caffeine is a drug, a very addictive one, and you should treat it as such
for my case I started by replacing cola, coffee, etc… for other stuff I liked to drink as well like orange juice and water… it’s actually a bit expensive though, because the price of cola and coffee is way much cheaper than mineral water or natural juices (at least here is that way)
the part that is probably a bit hard is when you start feeling that you need coffee, the withdrawal effects… you start feeling like you cannot think at all, that you are just too sleepy, sometimes with terrible headaches etc…
at those times, what I did was fill a huge bottle of water and put it next to me in my desk… and every time I felt like drinking cola or coffee I would instead drink a lot from the water bottle until I felt I didn’t want to drink anything anymore
I have had this same problem since high school as well. I have tried everything listed above and then some. I’ve tried sleeping less, sleeping more, drugs, no drugs, excerise, no excersise, nautural remedies, spiritual healing… and so much more. I still feel like crap. Doctors think I’m a hypochondriac or something… it seems like no one understands how painful it is to feel miserably exhausted all the time. But when I first wake up, it’s the worst. It’s a little better if I can wake up naturally, but when I have to wake up to an alarm clock (like you have to if you want to make money to keep the bed you sleep in) I am in hell. I wake up feeling like I have the flu+diareah+drug withdrawls every morning. It makes the whole day miserable.
I think you just need more sleep. Have you ever considered get good sleep? and good sleep regularly? You should be getting 8-9 hours of sleep a day and every hour you miss below 8 adds up,
i.e. if you get 6hrs for 2 days you need to make up about 4 hours.
“The situation continued even after I quit working at that hellhole.”
Sleep debt.
In this entire article, you don’t mention your sleep habits, and you disregarding them? Or do you actually get a good amount of sleep?
Brendan, what you say is completely true, it is necessary to get enough sleeping time and try to control your sleeping habits as much as possible
I just didn’t write about it because that’s about the same kind of advice that you can get everywhere, and most likely all readers have already tried it, just like I did before trying all the steps listed in this article
before actually doing these experiments, I was also trying to sleep at the same time every night and for about 8-9 hours (sometimes even more than that) and still felt like dead in the morning
Tests suggest that people who sleep for 8 hours or more die younger than those who sleep less
Sleeping too much can also make you just as tired as sleeping too little
I used to have major depression and have a lot of experience with sleeping too much and not enough
When I recovered, I could sleep for 5 hours a night and wake up in a great mood with lots of energy
The way you are feeling mentally, physically and emotionally plays a huge part in the quality of sleep you get
It’s quality that’s important, not quantity
nice one!….
and helpfull